I've read every homeschooling book at my library – and it's a good library so there are a lot of them! I've learned a lot. But there is one thing the books do not tell you how to do – stop homeschooling. How do you quit?
Punkin has been accepted at an amazing local charter school. She will start 4th grade in the fall. We obviously chose to pursue this path; and we have some valid reasons for thinking this may be the best path for her and our family. However, I have to admit that I didn't really think she would get a spot. There was a less than 1 percent chance, and admittance is determined by a lottery system, so the new students are determined purely by chance.
I'm scared. I'm scared about the things she will learn the hard way. I'm scared the teachers won't like her. I'm scared the other kids won't like her. I'm scared she won't like the other kids. I'm scared that she will be asked to be someone other than the free-spirited, creative girl that she is. I'm scared that what I have taught her will not be enough.
My dad was teasing me a little about going through the kindergarten mom anxiety with a 4th grader. And I definitely am. But, it is not just letting her go for the day. It's also letting go of complete responsibility of her education. Honestly, I'm having a hard time.
However, the chance was so slim and I prayed so much, I do believe that God opened this door for her. It is the right one for all of us. As scared as I am, I'm also super excited for her. I'm excited about the things she will learn. I'm excited that she has the opportunity to continue her education in a great place. I'm excited about the new friends she will make. I'm excited to see how she will grow.
And, maybe, I'll have more time to blog. *wink